I sometimes really hate myself. i wonder why i never learn from the past. I already face my UOL exam last year and i know how difficult it is. It is impossible for me to survive if i do not study well, but why i do not learn from it. sigh. I really regret why i do not study in this 5 months. I really know nothing. I doubt i can survive this time. Each time i want study, there will be some barriers. I try to pull myself to study. But each time i opened the questions, read the questions, i really do not know how to start answer it or can i say i really do not know what the question ask me to do. ="( seee, how bad i am. I really want to cry, really. can i survive on my last year? I am really afraid. T.T I only have 3 days before prelim, MA will be the first subject. This subject is super triple difficult from other subject. It does not mean the others are not. MA is super super tough subject. I even do not know how to start answer the question. Yesterday, i tried to do the past exam paper. I flipped the exam paper many times, but i could not find any question that i can do. ='( argh. even the theory part i also do not know. Really, i am sad. why i am so stupid? >.< All students in UOL really looks good, i think i am the only one who do not know how to do MA. T.T I even have not touched audit yet. As u know, i can't memorize things easily. I even need full day to just memorize 1 chapter with 4-5 pages. And audit is full theory, no numbers. I need to memorize 12 chapters in 884 pages and need to apply it for case study.T.T I am stress to the max know, desperate, really do not know what to do. May i survive?

 Yesterday was my last class in UOL. I am quite sad. The only last last class will be my UK revision, after that i will face my real exam on May. With my situation and condition like this, i do not know whether i can survive for my last war. 

I often see numbers 33 everywhere. I really do not know what it means. I am afraid each time i see this number, u know why? As u know my passing grade is 34. >.< I am afraid. hhhh. I will just do my best, although i know i can't do it. T.T

Guys, may u help me to pray so i can pass my last exam? Please..

God, i really do not what can i do now. I am really hopeless. U are the only one who can help me. God, please help me. pleaseee. ='(

confession

Here u are my confession.
I am stress. It is not because i do not know how to do my subjects, but because i haven't studied anything yet. My brain is empty inside. Day by day i spent them up with nothing useful. I really do not know how to start, which one to start first. Someone please motivate me to study. T.T slap me till i wake up, slap me harder!! wake me up, please!


Today, another wrong decision had been made. It happened already. I can not change anything and as usual, the result is regret. hhh.. i wonder why i often made wrong decision. >.<
Dear mummy club, i'd like all of u to know that I LOVE MUMMY CLUB SO MUCH!!!

14 and 15

hello world!!
i know it's late but still want to say:

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!!

how's ur valentine day?? Mine was ok. Nothing special like last year. Ytd, me and housemate celebrated valentine day together. 3 of us only stayed at home and had dinner as usual. But i made sushi for them. hehe. And without any plan, 3 of us were wearing pink pajamas. haha.

andddd do u know what date today?? It's February 15, exactly one day after valentine day which is my born day. haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!! ^o^

zhu wo sheng ri kuai le.

Thanks God for giving and letting me to live and breath till this age. I already made wishes this morning, then made wishes again when blew candles on my b'day cake from mummy club. hehe. love ya guys. My wishes are the same each time i made a wish. =) ok, i can't tell u guys. XD erm, nothing really special for my bday, but thank u for everyone who remember my b'day. Thank u for all wishes. ^^ I love u all. *later will upload some photos. 

anw, my prelim is less than 2 weeks and i haven't studied yet. i am quite panic now. seriously, i need to study, force and pull myself to study harder, if can,  i should give triple effort this time. wish me luck, guys. I just want to PASS. that's all. =)

prelim is coming

I haven't studied yettt. omg. I am really in bad condition. My prelim will come the end of this month, but i still haven't started my revision yet. I haven't even opened single page of my lecture notes. I definitely know i have nothing inside my brain, but why i still so relax and still can watch conan every day. I do sure die if i continue do such thing. I only have 2 weeks from now to study 3 subjects for my prelim, another 1 subject i think 1 week after the last prelim will do. but still not sure too. I am afraid, but i still do nothing. why like that?? haiz. It is actually just left 2 months before my real exam, which mean i only have 2 weeks to cover each subject. May i do this all? Based on my experience, it is far far away from enough. Haiz.

This is my last year. The last time for study and face exam if everything goes well. I want to survive. Die die must PASS. but how?? I haven't studied yet, and there are so many things to study. I am afraid.... Everyday i saw my friends stay till late at school to study, it really makes me so stressful. T.T I want to start, but there are so many barriers. The biggest barrier is my laptop itself. arrgghhh. I think i will try to keep my laptop far far away from me. Guys, would u please do me a favour? Please pray for me. I want to PASS my exam.

God, give me courage. wake me up when i do something unrelated with my study. Please God, help me. 

despoo

Finally i can sleep 9 hours. I got a dream, it was a scary dream. ='(  i do not want it to be real. God, help me..

Anw, i think i will have another busy weeks this month. I really need to force myself to study to catch up so many things. I am not blur about my 4 subjects, i just know nothing. My position is so damn dangerous now. My friends keep studying and studying while me still confuse which subject to start on. >.<

I want to PASS. Die die must PASS.

Guys, pray for me please. I really want to PASS. Everyone want to get good score, so do i. But now with my ability, i only want to get the PASS passing grade which is 34. Moreover, since day one in UOL, i only aim for 34. I only thought how to pass my exam. Just give me a word ''PASS'', it is more than enough for me. I WANT TO PASS. ='(   Pray for me guyssss..