REGRET!!!

I am regret. SH*T!! Really regret. sigh. why i ate so many things on today's lunch. i know i had buffet this afternoon in seoul garden, but i doesn't mean i can eat everything i want. I ate like crazy one. sigh. I am really regret. why i did not just agree when others suggest to had lunch on paradise dynasty. haiz. if i agreed with my friend's suggestion to have lunch there, i will not eat that much. arghhh.. why i am so stupid? never control what i had eaten. sigh. super idiot liao!! i ate too many salty curry fish, vegetables, chicken and beef with many taste, after that i ate 2 bowls of ice cream with 8 scoops on them and had another fruits. I also had lemon tea, peach tea and cappuccino. i really just realized i ate so many things on lunch. No wonder my stomach become so big and complaint me. then at the end, my gastric pain came and my stomach still hurt till now. ='( and the most regretful thing is my face become swollen and big. arghhh.. can i make my face thin??? i need tight diet already since chinese new year will come soon. I am afraid i can not wear my clothes that i bought last time. :'( but why each time i do diet, my face never thin??? hikz. arghhh.. i am really so stupid. If i agreed with my friends to had lunch in other place, i won't suffer these pains. I AM REGRET!!

dear my stomach, face, and whole part of my body: ''forgive me''. i promise this is the last time, i did this crazy things, really no next time. can u guys back to the normal size?? i will do diet. really!! just help me.. pleasee.. help me to have success diet till chinese new year. pleeeaseee!! *begging.


I am here writing this post just to make myself know, not blaming anyone else. Because i know it's my fault. I'd better say here clearly, rather than other people will misunderstand me again. As u know, i am lazy to explain when it comes to misunderstanding.

I am not only regret whatever stupidity i did this afternoon, but also i regret why i did not study from the beginning, now i am lost. i really lost on my subjects. each time i say i want to change and start study, but the reality i did not. since this is my last year, why i become so lazy?? why i never wake up and learn from my second year that rushing study for UOL can make me crazy. UOL is not as easy as other school. 3 hours on exam will determine our future. but why i always do the wrong thing and have never waken up yet and me even become worse than second year. I really do not where i should start to study now. All of my subjects has reached the middle topic of the whole year's chapters. Can i catch them up?? I realize that now i left far far away behind my friends. They always study after the classes end, while me stay in front of my laptop doing useless thing. When will i change this bad habit?? I do not have enough time anymore if i do not start study soon. 2012 will come soon, u and me only need to count down using 10 fingers. hmm.. guys, i really regret now. really! T.T i am afraid if i can not do well on my exam. I only need to get 34 for all subjects. Just let me pass and it is okay for me. I do not want to dissapoint my parents and my god-grandparents, especially my god- grandfather who has left me forever. *anw, i miss u kakek. ='(

Me now is really bad. I waste so many precious time of my life while others even want to have more time but they can not have it. I really regret with what i had done. I feel like nothing. I even have not did something that make my parents proud of me yet. hhhh.. So bad liaooo!!! what kind of girl i am??

GOD, can you forgive me??